Losing a Fur Baby

This girl has been to the Atlantic Ocean, on a plane to Alaska twice, across Alaska, all the way to the Pacific coast. And through every province in between, and a good handful of the states.

She’s been with me through the greatest transitions of my life. She has been through 9 different homes with our family. She’s been with me when I found out I was going to be a mom, there with love when her two human sisters were born. She was with my through my miscarriage, through every teaching job, and loved every other animal that’s come through this home.

She’s seen me break apart, celebrate, cry, scream, laugh until I cried.

She’s my protector. She’s my guardian. My best friend. My first baby. She’s been my shadow for 10.5 years of my life. My Angel on Earth.

She mesmerized every person she met, with her icy blue and brown eyed gaze. All she knew was how to love.

She’s never once left my side. She’s forgiven me when we’ve left her for months to travel. She’s never judged me. Never begrudged me. Never been angry at me.

She’s a better human than anyone I know. (And I know some good ones.)

She left us yesterday in her sleep. She was perfect, and her exit was done as perfectly as she’s done the rest of her life. I never saw my sweet girl age, she was as exiteable as she was at 2.

All I know is that I’m grateful, I’m grateful, I’m grateful I’m grateful for every single moment I had with her.

For every snow bank she leapt through, every nuzzle, every walk, every chipmunk she tried to chase, every adventure at all the beaches, all the woods, all the mountains, all the frozen lakes she’s ran across, and rivers and ponds she’s played in.

All I can think of (beyond the absolute heartbreak) is, if we aren’t just loving each other, then what the heck are we doing?

I’m so grateful. I’m so grateful. I’m so grateful to have known so much love.

Thank you to every beautiful souls who shared some time with her. We love you, and cherish you all as we grieve this incredible loss.

Tip to manage grief:

Light a candle in their honour, and write a letter to them telling them everything you wish them to know, or have a conversation with them.

Know that they will forever remain your guardian, your protector.